PropheticMonkey
September 11th, 2005, 12:51 PM
Has anyone ever felt this way? That your brain wants to do something that your heart dosent want to but when the heart resists the brain ignores it and does what it wants to do anyway? Then when the heart sees what the brain is doing it seems to cry?
My personality is changing slowly. I dont tolerate the jerks and the snobs as well as I used to. My friends say I'm easily irritated and it scares them sometimes. People remember things that I've done that I don't, and its getting harder and harder for me to control myself from just snapping. My brain wants me to go ahead and just explode, but my heart isnt in it. That part of me feels that they arent worth it, that I do good things for people and that should be enough for anyone, which I think so too...but that other part of me disagrees.
This one person in my Latin class remembers me from 6th grade, although I tried my hardest to keep myself anonymous in those days. She remembers that I used to be morbidly thin and she taunts me about it. In the middle of class my hands begun to shake and my eyes flashed red, although I kept telling myself that I wasnt that way anymore and it didnt matter. She stopped when she saw me get like that, but I still had to bite lip to keep my from saying what i really wanted to and storm out of the room.
I thought I got rid of these demons a long time ago. Now theyve resurfaced and for my own good I have to get rid of them once and for all. This comes at a really bad time when everyone is sending all their energy to the Katrina victims i know, but this is important to me. I need to move forward...and i would really appreciate any help you can spare
My personality is changing slowly. I dont tolerate the jerks and the snobs as well as I used to. My friends say I'm easily irritated and it scares them sometimes. People remember things that I've done that I don't, and its getting harder and harder for me to control myself from just snapping. My brain wants me to go ahead and just explode, but my heart isnt in it. That part of me feels that they arent worth it, that I do good things for people and that should be enough for anyone, which I think so too...but that other part of me disagrees.
This one person in my Latin class remembers me from 6th grade, although I tried my hardest to keep myself anonymous in those days. She remembers that I used to be morbidly thin and she taunts me about it. In the middle of class my hands begun to shake and my eyes flashed red, although I kept telling myself that I wasnt that way anymore and it didnt matter. She stopped when she saw me get like that, but I still had to bite lip to keep my from saying what i really wanted to and storm out of the room.
I thought I got rid of these demons a long time ago. Now theyve resurfaced and for my own good I have to get rid of them once and for all. This comes at a really bad time when everyone is sending all their energy to the Katrina victims i know, but this is important to me. I need to move forward...and i would really appreciate any help you can spare