Hateful dreams of my deceased mother....

[Sowelu]

I've been wanting to post something about this for a long time.
My mother and I have never been what you'd call "close". Tomorrow will be exactly one year since she passed away.
Anyways, my mother was a very blunt woman. She enjoyed always talking down to me and at times insulting me. Despite of everything, I still loved her and we did have our times when we did get along.
These dreams I have...they're so hateful to the point of me physically wanting or going about hurting her in them.
I have forgiven my mother a long time ago for everything. Why~ I wonder, do I have these rage filled dreams about her? So much hate and anger.:fpatricks

[SafeInTheWingsOfIsis]

Awwww *huggles* I hope that you feel better and these dreams stop. I'll send you some energy and pray for you. Obviously, however, there are some issues that you need to face (?)

[Astara Seague]

Theres something trying to surface, maybe you have not totally forgiven her? Just a thought

[RainDance]

are there things you still want to tell her?

[Jenne]

So sorry Sowelu...I am hoping this is just something your subconscious is wanting you to forgive her for and move on...

:hugz:

[Sage Rainsong]

well you may have forgiven her but that doesn't mean that you are still not angry (its very okay to be angry). Perhaps you should write an angry letter detailing your feelings. Get as blunt as you need to be and hold absolutely nothing back. Cry scream throw things it doesn't matter. Then burn the letter and smudge your house. You could then light a white candle and tell your mother how she made you feel. After pray that you both find peace. Well I hope that you get some sleep.

[Sowelu]

Thank You everyone!:hearthear


I do forgive her but yes, I do still think of some of the things she's said or did and I still feel a little angry at times.
I was hoping to communicate with her after she parted this world. I got frusterated for a while because I couldn't. But then again I know there may be a few reasons for it.