had a troubling dream during a troubled time...please help

[Zhr Morgana]

I had this dream last night...everytime I think about it or try and reflect upon it, I get tears in my eyes. It all started off harmless and kooky enough, but ended up, well...different.

I had a dream last night where I took my bird Tweaker into a pet shop...David was working there...I stuck Tweaker into a container of worms and insects and he started eating a mealworm or something like that. I didn't know he liked those things. But then David and I started talking and then after a little while it got to where he said to me "I'll always love you." and I said I'd always love him too. WTF does that mean??? It probably doesn't mean anything, but why does it bring tears to my eyes when I think of it?

We held each other after saying those things...it felt so damn nice, so comfortable. It felt like we belonged in each other's arms. Maybe I'm searching for something like what David and I used to have, during those first years of being together. Maybe it's an affirmation that he and I will always care about each other, but we'll never have what we used to again, we'll never be able to go back...I don't know what that dream means...but I don't care to explore it, really...don't have the energy for it nor the emotional capacity for it.

A little background: He and I were together for a long time, almost 5 years...we were engaged to be married and lived together...but nothing ever went right for us. We were always falling on hard times, emotionally or financially. We've been broken up for a year and a half, but still keep in touch now. He has a new girlfriend now, and they are planning on moving away together to a different city soon. I'm completely fine with that...maybe a little sad in reflection...after all, he was my first real love and it took me a long time to heal from leaving him.

[Nova]

You said you aren't interested in the meaning... what would you like help with then?

Sounds like you had a rough night. :hugz:

[Zhr Morgana]

LOL sorry...

I think I meant to say that I don't want to explore the possible meanings behind it myself...which would most likely include contacting David and speaking to him about it in person...and I don't think it would be good for either of us to take a step backward.

I'm wanting to get a basic interpretation...anybody's opinions on it would be nice. I'm just too tired to try and decipher it myself.

[Autumn Clair]

Greetings, I'd be happy to interpret for you but your not going to like the answer I don't think. You pretty much interpreted the dream posting it here with your thoughts on it.


It's obvious your trying to move on but do understand that you will always love him because of that first connection. And it's easy to see some people who are in love just can't be because everything seems to go wrong but this new girlfriend in his life has brought your subconscious knocking on your conscious door saying hey I really love him and he's moving on why can't it work for us?

It's a simple question all of us ask when we realize things just don't fit when we love someone and know staying together would only cause headaches even though you love each other. And you do know he loves you and probably always will but has come to the same answers you you it just won't work so he's moving on and your just wondering why it won't work.

See I told you you wouldn't like it. You both will probablly always feel that connection but moving on doesn't mean he doesn't love you in some way still it just means he's trying not to cause you more pain as you would want him to be happy I'm sure he's thinking the same for you.

[tarotgirljess]

My take was it was a goodbye from david. expect to hear news of an upcoming marriage or commitment that he has made to someone else.
His way of saying "hey you were special and i'll remember you fondly but it won't/can't work and i can't do this anymore. you still have Tweaker and you'll be ok, but it's time for me to move on"

Jess

[Zhr Morgana]

hey it's all good guys...I really don't have anything that I do or don't want to hear in this case. David and I have been over for a long time but we never really fully said goodbye for almost that entire time. I just wasn't sure of what to make of that dream, whether it really was goodbye or if it was just something reminding me that we'll always love each other even though it never would've worked out...or even both? I had another dream a few weeks ago where he and I were off somewhere alone and just started holding each other, and I'm sure there've been others where we were intimate and lovey like that, I just can't recall them.

So let me have it...don't worry about what I might not want to hear :)

[Cassie]

I would basicly agree with what Autumn Clair said. I guess David has been a sourse of comfort and security on the edge of your conciousness all through your ups and downs with Tyson.
Now that he is moving on (in more ways than one) you have a fear that one sourse of security is getting further out of reach.
I think your pet bird may represent an element of your own personality which is both fascinated and confused by a period of self discovery.

[Zhr Morgana]

Perhaps...I hadn't thought about that before. Thanks Cassie!

[Autumn Clair]

I would basicly agree with what Autumn Clair said. I guess David has been a sourse of comfort and security on the edge of your conciousness all through your ups and downs with Tyson.
Now that he is moving on (in more ways than one) you have a fear that one sourse of security is getting further out of reach.
I think your pet bird may represent an element of your own personality which is both fascinated and confused by a period of self discovery.

:flowers: I liked your interpretation with the bird. :flowers: