Duende
July 23rd, 2006, 04:39 PM
I just found out that I'm an empath.I have never wished, wanted, or even thought about being one before, so it's really a surprise. I've known about empaths for a long time, so I'm not quite sure how I could be so stupid as to not realize that I am one myself. I've always been able to see, feel, and hear energy a little bit, but that's just because everyone can to a minor degree (or so is my belief) but I never thought that I had an actual manifest ability.
It just hit me about a week ago. I had experimented with energy work before, but I guess my thinking was too abstract, or something, because it got nowhere, and I now know I was doing it wrong because it was nothing like what I really experience. I have had this ability my whole life, so I thought it was completely normal, not having anything to compare it to.
One day, I was thinking about my fear of crowds and social situations, in which I always feel terrible. I was thinking about this thing I do to calm myself where I quiet my mind and stop thinking in words, and I shift my focus to physical sensation rather than thought and emotion, and I don't experience anything other than myself, in a way. I realized, I'm actually performing a non- visual, non-ritualized form of shielding! It was so different than what I imagined shielding to be that I didn't recognize it for what it was.
I practised doing this, and when I went to the Comic-Con these past couiple of days, it worked wonders! I usually get any number of feelings, from premonitions to headaches to ears ringing to nausea, but when I did my shielding thing, I felt like a million bucks! It was thrilling!
Now, I realise, comes the hard part. I've gooten good good at shielding, and reaped the benefits. Butwe all know it's not healthy to let a your abilities atrophy. Soon I'm going to have to face the hazards of developing and actually using my ability. I'm so glad all of you guys are here; I feel safe and hopeful knowing that you all have been here before and are able to help. :cheers:
BTW: I think this is going to be cool, as scary as it is right now.:hahugh:
It just hit me about a week ago. I had experimented with energy work before, but I guess my thinking was too abstract, or something, because it got nowhere, and I now know I was doing it wrong because it was nothing like what I really experience. I have had this ability my whole life, so I thought it was completely normal, not having anything to compare it to.
One day, I was thinking about my fear of crowds and social situations, in which I always feel terrible. I was thinking about this thing I do to calm myself where I quiet my mind and stop thinking in words, and I shift my focus to physical sensation rather than thought and emotion, and I don't experience anything other than myself, in a way. I realized, I'm actually performing a non- visual, non-ritualized form of shielding! It was so different than what I imagined shielding to be that I didn't recognize it for what it was.
I practised doing this, and when I went to the Comic-Con these past couiple of days, it worked wonders! I usually get any number of feelings, from premonitions to headaches to ears ringing to nausea, but when I did my shielding thing, I felt like a million bucks! It was thrilling!
Now, I realise, comes the hard part. I've gooten good good at shielding, and reaped the benefits. Butwe all know it's not healthy to let a your abilities atrophy. Soon I'm going to have to face the hazards of developing and actually using my ability. I'm so glad all of you guys are here; I feel safe and hopeful knowing that you all have been here before and are able to help. :cheers:
BTW: I think this is going to be cool, as scary as it is right now.:hahugh: