Bad dream! *smacks dream*

[RoseKitten]

Ok, so for those that have PMed me, you know the background (for those interested in knowing, just PM me).

So, here's what happened:

Ok, so my dream started out with X and his family coming in to where I work and eating (I'm a waitress), and lucky me ends up waiting on them. His parents and sister were so angry with me, they were just horrible in fact. But, X was just smiling, and happy, and so warm to me.

Ok, meals over, and he and I are talking. I start on about how I love my husband, but I feel like he doesn't complete me. Like, I'm empty inside, even though I love him. Well, X comes over and tries to help me, and I just feel so complete with him, but am afraid to be with him and leave my husband.


**At this point, I'm awake, in tears, and am never going to sleep in again. I don't know what to do. I'm actually talking to X on IM right now, and he wants to know about this dream, but I'm too scared to tell him. I can't decide if it was just my minds way of getting me to apologize to him for all the horrible things I did to him, or if it's something deeper. I know I'm the only one that can really answer that question, but still, it's nice to vent.

[Rudas Starblaze]

ive been in a simular situation. of course mine ended in divorce..

trust your feelings. i was 19/20 when i was married the first time and it ended about 5 1/2 years later due to a wife who wouldnt make the marrital sacrifice that i did. of course the woman i had feelings for was taken and i couldnt bring myself to act on it, but my ex sure acted on another.

its up to you and how much you value the commitment marriage. i quit a job i loved and drove 170 and 3/10 miles round trip for another job to try to save my marriage. of course my ex-wife wouldnt.