Horrible Horrible Disturbing Emotional Dream.

[Eudaimonia]

I'm not sure where else to talk about Dreams at. Please, if one of the mods moves this, send me a PM.

Background: A few weeks ago I turned in a man for sexually molesting me when I was 14 (1998). It's taken that long for me to get the guts, and I've been feeling that I should have done it sooner. What if he hurt someone else?

Dream: My little sis (16) was lying on a smooth... well, prye I guess, only not ment to be burned. Dunno the word. Anywho, she was bluish-black, a deccaying body, and I was crying, because it was my fault. Somehow he had hurt her, and killed her, and if I'd turned him in sooner, my sis would still be alive! It was so vivid that I woke up actually believing it to be a memory. It took a moment or two for me to know that it was a dream and Ray is alive and kicking (or, well, running). The emotion was horrible!

Interpretation: Well, what I've said above certainly counts, but at that point I'm lost. Anyone else?

[Phoenix Blue]

In two words, dear: forgive yourself. **Hugs** It wasn't your fault you were abused. And finding the courage to not only overcome your abuse but to bring your abuser to justice must have been an incredible journey for you.

You did what you could. . . and I think you did well! Don't blame yourself for not doing more. . . **smiles**

[Myst]

That does sound horrible! My prayers are with you in this time, and good for you for having the courage to do something. I know you're probably feeling guilty for not doing this sooner, but I also know it takes a helluva lot of courage to report someone for this sort of thing. The fact that you've lived through it says enough about how brave and strong you've been, and that you've reported it is a great thing too. I don't know what to say except that my thoughts are with you and I have much respect for you for standing up for yourself.

Beyond that, I think you've probably hit the dream nail right on the head. I'm sure deep down you really do feel guilty and fear that he might've done this to other girls. Your sister is probably someone you feel very close and protective of, and she might also represent anyone else he's hurt. This dream simply seems to bring to your consciousness your unconscious fears. Until this gets sorted out you don't know for sure what happened. You might try telling yourself at bedtime that you won't have nightmares anymore, and envelope yourself in white light (there's more on this sort of thing in M&R I think), and/or make yourself a dream amulet.

Try not to blame yourself, and have courage in that now that you've done this he will be brought to justice. No one can fault you, you were just a child, and you deserve kudos for coming out about it now.

[Psyche Ague]

*hugs you* You were brave to turn him in at all! I'm so proud of you. Forgive yourself.

My thoughts are with you.

[Flar's Freyja]

(((((hugs))))) I agree, this is one of those dreams that results from life trauma or stress, and means exactly what you think it does.

BTW, this is the correct forum to post dream questions :)

[Silver Venus]

What happened to you was terrible, I am truly sorry, and think like everyone that you have to try and put this trauma behind you into the past and not blame yourself, I know it must be very hard ~ none of this is absolutley not your fault at all.
Reporting him must of been very hard, it took time because you personally needed time to cope.

Talking about it now will hopefully help, I hope you feel much better soon.
((HUGS))

[Eudaimonia]

Thanks everyone.
The cops haven't really talked to him yet, but I'll keep everyone posted as to what the currents are.

Really... thanks.

[Flar's Freyja]

You're welcome. Never forget that you did the right thing. I'm wondering if you're going to be called as a witness? I'm a professional social worker, so if I can help, PM me.......

[Eudaimonia]

I know I'll be on the witness stand. I agreed to. If I feel really threatend by this guy (he's a dangerous career criminal) I'll hide out at women's refuge. Or somewhere.

I've told friends about this problem before, but none of them turned him in. I think they knew (and I'm glad if it's true) that I would be angry at them for doing so; that I would talk to the authorities when I was ready. Well, I've gotta go thru with it now.

[Flar's Freyja]

((((((Hugs))))))) Remember that our prayers and energies are with you as well as your guides and deities.