So I saw a Shaman..

[lamoka]

My girlfriend was in need of some spiritual healing so we were blessed to find a Shaman in our area (well about an hour away but hey..) so we decided to journey this together.. well yesterday when we went she found my power animal for me..
it was the raven and she told the Shaman that I had much work to do and that it revolved around magickal, mystical.. that there were great teachings I needed to learn and that my work at this time, in order for healing to happen, was needed in the dark side of myself.. the raven had a crystal in her talons and wrapped around the crystal was a snake.. would anyone like to give their opinion on this.. any insight.. I have been working on lightness in myself.. I have been working on getting the shadows to subside.. now I am being told to delve into that which is dark in me to find the peace and knowledge I seek..
I don't know how to do this.. this Shaman didn't know my path, she knew not where my footsteps have taken me these past years.. so when she came across with this I was floored..
blessings

[Hope]

well no one has balance when they push down one side and focus on only the other

rather like only focusing on your right leg and never your left

snakes shed the old skin, sometimes moving forward with scars and then are "new"
moving forward again

and the raven sees in all directions...

love
t

[lamoka]

I think one of my misconceptions is in believing that certain aspects of my nature are "bad".. and in trying to overcome them.. to make them "go away".. i.e.
I am jealous (with absolutely no need to be) but it comes out in my dreams..
I am vain (possibly in compensation for being overweight)
I am fearful
I can be quick to anger and shy from confrontation (so tend to be passive aggressive)
I see these as "bad" traits/behaviors and do not see how they can benefit my life in any way because I see them as a negative and can possibly hurt those in whom I come in contact with so I don't let them out and work hard to make them "go away"..
I am givng, loving, accepting, forgiving so how, if I am such a "good" person do I make peace with the "bad" in me..
hmmm.. maybe after all I am not as accepting and forgiving as I thought I was when it comes to myself.. (or loving or giving)
things that make you go hmmmmmmmmm..
I'm beginning to wonder if I haven't been walking a tightrope and am now feeling the solidness of Mother Earth under my feet for the very first time in my life.. I feel sort of wobbly.. its like bouncing on the trampoline and then landing on the ground..
it is then that you feel off balanced..
blessings

[Hope]

you are the second time in less then a week that lamoka has come to me .. i find that significant

but back to YOU lol

well i think perhaps your lessons have all come back to grey

after all things are right or wrong; left or right, good or bad; etc based on the agreements you have accepted as true

for example you may find it bad to kill and wrong, yet a person who is high on drugs comes after you, tries to hurt you, knocks you down, while fighting back you manage to push them away and run off BUT

you pushed the person in front of a car, and the attacker was killed

were you bad? did you kill? did the driver of the car? was the driver bad? or was it that grey area...

we are like that as people, we have all these layers and they help give us clues, checks and balances

right?

love
t

[lamoka]

I have pm'd you hope.. also yahoo im