WinterHeart
January 13th, 2008, 10:35 AM
My life has hit rock bottom and I feel very trapped, alone, and don't know how to deal with it.
It all started back in October when my dad decided he wanted to leave my mother and I because he did not want to care for her anymore, she has MS and diabetes which have caused her to be legally blind and wheelchair bound. He himself hasa bleeding ulcer in his stomach but he still lifts heavy objects and generally disregards what doctors suggest him to do. I am 26 but still live with my parents because I feel they need my help but I work at least 40 hours a week so I am not here to care for every little thing they need unfortunately.
About a week after my dad tore me apart by saying he wanted to leave he was hit in the face by a horse that was rearing up, it fractured his skull in 3 places and crushed his sinus bones in. He made it through surgery and everything fine and was back up on his feet the very next day. The kicker for me is that no one called me or my mother when he got hurt, I found out by calling him because I had a question from my work that I needed help with and he informed me that he was in the hospital but everything was fine and he wasnt hurt too bad. Of course when I called the hospital they told me there were 3 fractures and possible brain damage and that I needed to get myself and my mother there as quick as possible because it was serious and he was going to have to be rushed to a larger hospital in an ambulance as soon as he was stable enough. My dad had his cellphone, the owner of ther farm had hers and so did the horse trainer, someone should have called me to let me know something was up.
After his injury the doctor put him on Oxycodone, this too has changed him and made him very hateful and verbally abusive. One night last month he stayed gone 4 hours after he should have been home from work and when I called to check to make sure he was ok he ignored his phone and didnt answer but when he got home that night he slammed doors, yelled and screamed and then proceeded to break everything in our dining room he could get his hands on one thing at a time and then went after our glass cabinets and anything he could find that was my grandmothers because he knows her things are very special to my mom. I called the cops that night and they came and took pictures of all the damage and talked with us, dad was still in a foul mood and ran his mouth to them as well so they took him and he spent the night in jail. The next few days he cried and said he wanted to be with mom and I and be a family again but a week later he was back to being hateful again. We have to go to court because of his actions later this month and I dont know how I will handle it because I was raped by a friend when I was 15 and I cant stand being in courtrooms because it brings all those old memories back.
I am also having trouble with my land lord(she is the one that owns the horses my dad works with) and the horse trainer, they call my dads cellphone and leave nasty messages about how rude my mom and I to them which is not true. My land lord calls my mom alot and tells her that we dont appreciate my dad and dont deserve to have him with us. I have listened to the things she has said to my mom on our second phone while they talk and it is hard for me to handle.
My dad stays at work for 10-12 hours at a time 6 days a week and then goes back for about 8 more hours on sundays. I really think there is more than just work going on over the and they hurts me very much but when I ask him whats going on he says nothing that they are just working with the horses. I want to buy a house if I can get approved for a loan and have asked him if he would come with me so he, mom, and I can start over and be a family again but he says he wont leave his job. He has no real benefits, no insurance, no vacation time, so it's difficult for me to try to pinpoint what his issue is.
Also I am having trouble with harassment from coworkers at the factory where I work, on guy made comments to some of the people working on the floor about how he would like to see me in my panties and other rude things and one of my team leaders is just a jerk, constantly telling me to 'f**k off' and 'f**k you' and finding every little way he can upset me and make me look bad. I've talked to my manager and he says "oh well, he's having a bad time at home just look past him" but that is no excuse, I'm not having a good time at home either but I dont take it out on everyone else. I have been to HR 4 times in the last 3 months but nothing has been done yet.
I feel nervous and upset all the time, I don't remember the last day when I was able to go all day and night without crying. I've been feeling really sick and went to the doctor last saturday and found out I have a bad kidney infection and a bacterial infection in my stomach and intestines. I've finished off my antibiotics and feel somewhat better but I feel so trapped. If anyone has any suggests on how to deal with these things please share them with me.
Thankyou very much
It all started back in October when my dad decided he wanted to leave my mother and I because he did not want to care for her anymore, she has MS and diabetes which have caused her to be legally blind and wheelchair bound. He himself hasa bleeding ulcer in his stomach but he still lifts heavy objects and generally disregards what doctors suggest him to do. I am 26 but still live with my parents because I feel they need my help but I work at least 40 hours a week so I am not here to care for every little thing they need unfortunately.
About a week after my dad tore me apart by saying he wanted to leave he was hit in the face by a horse that was rearing up, it fractured his skull in 3 places and crushed his sinus bones in. He made it through surgery and everything fine and was back up on his feet the very next day. The kicker for me is that no one called me or my mother when he got hurt, I found out by calling him because I had a question from my work that I needed help with and he informed me that he was in the hospital but everything was fine and he wasnt hurt too bad. Of course when I called the hospital they told me there were 3 fractures and possible brain damage and that I needed to get myself and my mother there as quick as possible because it was serious and he was going to have to be rushed to a larger hospital in an ambulance as soon as he was stable enough. My dad had his cellphone, the owner of ther farm had hers and so did the horse trainer, someone should have called me to let me know something was up.
After his injury the doctor put him on Oxycodone, this too has changed him and made him very hateful and verbally abusive. One night last month he stayed gone 4 hours after he should have been home from work and when I called to check to make sure he was ok he ignored his phone and didnt answer but when he got home that night he slammed doors, yelled and screamed and then proceeded to break everything in our dining room he could get his hands on one thing at a time and then went after our glass cabinets and anything he could find that was my grandmothers because he knows her things are very special to my mom. I called the cops that night and they came and took pictures of all the damage and talked with us, dad was still in a foul mood and ran his mouth to them as well so they took him and he spent the night in jail. The next few days he cried and said he wanted to be with mom and I and be a family again but a week later he was back to being hateful again. We have to go to court because of his actions later this month and I dont know how I will handle it because I was raped by a friend when I was 15 and I cant stand being in courtrooms because it brings all those old memories back.
I am also having trouble with my land lord(she is the one that owns the horses my dad works with) and the horse trainer, they call my dads cellphone and leave nasty messages about how rude my mom and I to them which is not true. My land lord calls my mom alot and tells her that we dont appreciate my dad and dont deserve to have him with us. I have listened to the things she has said to my mom on our second phone while they talk and it is hard for me to handle.
My dad stays at work for 10-12 hours at a time 6 days a week and then goes back for about 8 more hours on sundays. I really think there is more than just work going on over the and they hurts me very much but when I ask him whats going on he says nothing that they are just working with the horses. I want to buy a house if I can get approved for a loan and have asked him if he would come with me so he, mom, and I can start over and be a family again but he says he wont leave his job. He has no real benefits, no insurance, no vacation time, so it's difficult for me to try to pinpoint what his issue is.
Also I am having trouble with harassment from coworkers at the factory where I work, on guy made comments to some of the people working on the floor about how he would like to see me in my panties and other rude things and one of my team leaders is just a jerk, constantly telling me to 'f**k off' and 'f**k you' and finding every little way he can upset me and make me look bad. I've talked to my manager and he says "oh well, he's having a bad time at home just look past him" but that is no excuse, I'm not having a good time at home either but I dont take it out on everyone else. I have been to HR 4 times in the last 3 months but nothing has been done yet.
I feel nervous and upset all the time, I don't remember the last day when I was able to go all day and night without crying. I've been feeling really sick and went to the doctor last saturday and found out I have a bad kidney infection and a bacterial infection in my stomach and intestines. I've finished off my antibiotics and feel somewhat better but I feel so trapped. If anyone has any suggests on how to deal with these things please share them with me.
Thankyou very much