Advice for me please

[Morgoth]

Well I just need some advice. Badly - Its been a really really rough past few months. I had tried my best to keep my smile on by doing what i love best -artwork , reading martial art and working out. But i cant get over how badly and alone i feel. Its seems like i have no freinds , no one ever calls me and i9 cannot find anyone to date. I dont wont to sound like im asking for pity but I live in a small town thats only concern seems to be football, IM very goth looking and thats just who i am . I cannot change my heart to suite other people but i cant seem to find anyone to socialize with who enjoys any of the same things as i . My heart feels so empty as well. If i dress up really nice and wear -Yuppie type clothing i can get dates easy as i do look attractive and im in good shape but thats not me I cant do that . Its really hard when no one will give u the time of day just based on how u look. I am thinking of saving my money and relocating to a bigger city where i might be able to meet some people who enjoy the same things as i. Im just so tired fo being sad. I know its not good for my health and i hate being sad. I enjoy laughing and being goofy but i have no freinds to be with who enjoy me. I feel like im dieing inside from lonlieness and its rough I know not what to do to feel better right now/. i cant seem to meditate relax sleep draw or dop anything as im too sad. Its hard holding it in too , i fake smiles at work and just hold it in as i have no one to talk to or relate my emotions too. Its hard - really hard any help - would be most appreciated thank you

[Merrilyn]

I'm in a similar place right now. Pining for human connection but finding none save over this machine.

Nice screen name, btw.

I'm just not sure what to say. You cannot, must not compromise who you are or your identity for anything, but perhaps a little tweaking may help. Try new places. Tone down the goth...It resides within you no matter how you dress or come across. Is there a college in your town, or nearby? Always a good place to find like-minded and sensible people. If it's necessary to move... MOVE. You've got to do what's best for you, and you have the right to live as you wish to.

I wish you the best of luck and again I say, I hear ya. Take care, and feel free to PM or whatever. :hugz:

[yarrow_elfglow]

I know how you feel hun. I live in a small town in the bible belt that is only concern with football and the christian religion and im very goth looking as well. im kinda going through what you are. its really hard not to feel sad and alone, but i just throw myself into a book or my music and try and forget about everything. the only advice i can really give to you is this........keep your head up and you will find friends to laugh and be goofy with. if you have to move to a bigger city than go! but, feel free to pm me anytime you need somebody to talk to.

[Morgoth]

thanx for the help. actully the biggest problem is the fact the college is in town. Most of the students here are mainly obsessed with football . I have seen maybe a few of them into the same things as i. and well im 30 lol they just dont seem to mix outside of campus. i dont know but it seems the colleges extreame growth has run off most fo the non yuppie types here . i may move as well just getting too pricey too live here. thanx though

[Morgoth]

i really appreciate the help. yea boone i dont know it just seems like its really anti heavy metal/goth comepletly. Thier are alot of hippes here which i know a few but unles syour into the same thing as them the treat you just as crappyas the football crowd. i need to move i love my townand the mountains but i think ill never be happy here . I should just save my money and relocate somewhere where i can meet people more like myself

[yarrow_elfglow]

thanx for the help. actully the biggest problem is the fact the college is in town. Most of the students here are mainly obsessed with football . I have seen maybe a few of them into the same things as i. and well im 30 lol they just dont seem to mix outside of campus. i dont know but it seems the colleges extreame growth has run off most fo the non yuppie types here . i may move as well just getting too pricey too live here. thanx though

there is a town about 8 miles north of where i live at, and its our local college (southesast missouri state uni) and its a big football town. i love football, but everytime i read the paper or watch the news there is always something about semo!

[Morgoth]

In boone all you ever hear about is foot ball after asu won 3 championships and beat michigan. I feel like a toatl outcast as i cant find anyone who enjoys heavy metal , tattoos and the same things i like to hang out with. Some of the hippiers are nice and all but i cant sit anbd play drums all day or listen to bangjos . Thats just not me and the foot ball crowd just wants to get drunk and scream all the time. I cant even go out to bar with out some loud abonoxious person screaming into my ear. The coffee shops are my only place to hang out and it gets lonly sitting there by myself day after day after day. Gf ? well if i dres sup nice i can get dates easy but i cant date the soroity type girls here , i have tried to and i jujst cant do it . I need a lady who enjoys the same things as i. I know im picky but i cant date soemone i cant even stand lol its hard being alone constantly i feel like a losty ghost just wandering around town

[yarrow_elfglow]

hun, if your ever in southeast missouri, let me know! from what i've read, we enjoy the same things and i as well have lots of problems finding people around here that enjoy the samethings i do. i found lots of them in washington state. one day im going back there! yes, i admit there are some people in my area that like the same things i do, but they are usually to busy changing themselves from one day to the next.

[Morgoth]

Thanx 8) i have to say its just nice having someone to talk too for a lil bit . I really appreciate it alot. So many people have no idea how lukcy they are to have freinds and such. I would never want to be normal as i think its a really boring exsiance msyelf, its just so many people where i live are just that normal. Im glad to know at least someone out there appreciates me for who i am . Thank you for being such a kind person<>O_O<>! i really really needed someone to talk to tonight as i was wandering around town in the freezing cold jusyt trying to numb myself earlier . My body is tough so i can take alot of cold its just the cold inside thats so hard to deal with. ya know. I feel like i have alot of heart i just dont know how to let it out when no one seems to want to be around me. I try to keep my mind occupied as not to think about being so alone but after a while you cant. Thank you so much though i cant express it enough 8)

[yarrow_elfglow]

its not a prob hun! thats what im hear for. you seem like a very sweet person who does have a lot of heart. i do understand about being normal. it is a boring exsiance. like i said before, feel free to pm me anytime. i stay onlime most of the time, but if i have something to take care off i'll respond as soon as i get back.

[KiNoRonin]

I now am Feeling something like Margot-San is now that my Friend Mark-Sama has suddenly Passed Away.

I used to enjoy Hanging Out with him.

But now I have almost No One.

:(

I cant wait to get back to my Landscaping Work. That way, I will at least have my Landscaping Buddies to Hang Out With.

KNR - 3X3

[yarrow_elfglow]

awe hun, im sry to hear about the loss of your friend. i have very few friends here, so i know whats its like to have almost no one. feel free to pm if you ever need to talk

[Philosophia]

Sending positive and calming energy to you! :hugz: