A shaman seeking advice from another shaman.

[Shanti]

A question to those who know some of my work in Shamanism...
Should I go to the other side to seek what I search for?
For those who are not familiar...I work in the shamanism field of shifting to other dimensions. So not new to the active form.

I am asking a question that in the past I would never have asked anyone but myself...but I dont want my own counsel right now.
I am unsure of myself with my emotions being all twisted.

My inquiry is based on this thread I have in helping hands and hugs.
LINK (http://mysticwicks.com/showthread.php?t=211461)

I have never used my abilities for myself before. I have never needed to nor wanted to.
I have always learned what I needed when I work for others.
It feels selfish to have my needs be the reason to transcend.

[MonSno_LeeDra]

Shanti,

I am the hollow bone and respond as Spirit wills and directs me.

I see you approaching the viel of your own demise and the deaths that surround you remind you of its approach. One can cross the barrier between worlds but it is in how we face the viel that we know the truth of our existance. It is in facing the viel that we face the greatest of our test and the deepest and most ancient of out fears, that of death.

We say it is to soon and we are too young to be called over. If we are to young then surely those with us are to young as well. But those that remain at times must be the Spirit Keeper for those that have passed but were not ready to do so. We may tend the spirit as part of us, like a fragment that clings to this present. Yet we may be the keeper that helps the Spirit come to terms with its place and create the spirit house to hold a year to allow it to slip the barrier as it sheds it's earthly weight.

We must at times be the guide that prepares the spirit to journey as it begins to release it's hold upon the physical. Yet we can be the anchor that binds it to this realm should we not assit it and give it the light to proceed. To comfort the spirit as the body fails and begins it journey to the dust. To receive the spirit that travels its last goodbye even as hurt and pain hide it's presence from our eyes and senses.

Yet at times we are the spirit keepers and live the life for a year that was lost and then allow it to cross and be at rest and ease. Our pain may hold it earth bound and only through the passage of our words and deeds can we free it's boundary and free our spiritual wound. The words that haunt us must be set free to take wing and fly as the spirit we mourn over and carry the pain in our unspoken words. Words that the winds may carry across the barrier as we read them unto the air.

No, the veil does not seem close to me for you but your own turmoil tweeks the curtain of the veil. The losses you have suffered and are suffering, ie Shanti, only serve to place the closeness before your eyes and show the fear and unpreparedness of your timing.

You attmept to cross the barrier for Karin yet you must turn inward to face the Karin that lies within and remains a part of you and make your peace with that before you can attempt to contact across the worlds. That Karin that lies within is the Karin of your life and journey. It is that Karin that holds the key to the Karin that has left and passed over to leave you alone in that friendship.

I feel you are not lost within only clinging to the severed thread that no longer pulses with the life of a friend. Your spirit can no longer rider that thread and touch her essence in the physical though it be present in your energy. Your spirit cracks under the load of the guilt that lies within that was not cast upon you but claimed as your charge.

Spirit calls in the quite of the night and the brightness of the day. Spirit touches upon your brown and wipes the tears of unknowning eyes that hold no source of release for the grief that waits within like a coiled snake. But spirit will calm the serpent and remove the fangs that dig into the injured flesh and body.

Spirit calls you to the field to cry unto the winds to carry your grief and sorrow to the heights. To bathe in the breath of smoke and ash with touch of moisture upon brow and breath. To see the veil of time but not fear it. To let your pain take wing and soar unto the heights and fuel the passage of your charge.

Death is no foe to fight or battle but a companion that walks our walk and talks our talk and gives us a shoulder to cling to as we near the twilight of our journey. A journey not driven by our clock but the clock within that marks the passage of our jouney as the sands feed out and death pulls the great viel back before us.

Yet he is also a teacher that will take us to our greatest fear and show us the darkness of our fears as they are revealed before the shadows. Yet like a dance partner he can and will bring those keepers back for another day until it is time to cross.

So no do not journey the worlds or cross the barriers. Reach inside and comfort the child within that has lost her friend, hug the child that weeps for the pet that passes before her eyes as she feels the weight of loss and hopleness of action. Strengthen the adult that carries the weight of unresolved action so that they may speak the words unto the world and write them into the air.

Close your eyes and breathe in Spirit into your body into your lungs and feel its pull upon hair and skin. Bathe in the moisture of its kiss and dance in the embrace of its smokey body.

I am the hollow bone but the words and meaning are not mine to give or send. I hope Spirit has spoken and answered your need Shanti...But of all things remember you are not alone and I can be a hollow bone for your words if you need.

[Shanti]

Wow. Let me wipe the tears away.
I feel like I was reading my own voice, the one inside, the one I closed off.

Thank you.

There are no words that I can use to tell you how you hit what I know to be right. Its was truly as if my own spirit spoke.

The tears and human heart haven't fell till now...a good fall.

Thank you so very much.

[MonSno_LeeDra]

You are welcome though the words were not mine I was simply the hollow bone through which Spirit chose to speak. However, if you need me, if for nothing more than an ear to bend please feel free to call. Pm or public it does not matter for I will answer both as best I can.

[Shanti]

You are welcome though the words were not mine I was simply the hollow bone through which Spirit chose to speak. However, if you need me, if for nothing more than an ear to bend please feel free to call. Pm or public it does not matter for I will answer both as best I can.
I may take you up on that!

Big Hugs. :)

[BearDancing]

Wow, I just read this thread....without going to Shanti s link.....it is so nice to see Spirit Speak to Shanti through MonSno_LeeDra ..beautiful exchange and thanks for choosing to post rather than PM....the more people who witness people asking for direction when not sure ...and recieving *divine guidance* as I see it....is a true gift...thanking both of you...