Please

[Convallaria]

I don't know if this is where I put it...
I've been feeling less and less like I want to be around these days.
I feel so stupid talking about this because I'm so against suicide... maybe I don't want to die... Maybe I just want attention... I want someone to love me so badly... I know I'm young, but so many of my friends have found love... so many of them are going off and leaving me behind. I understand that this is a phase in my life that will pass, but somehow that doesnt change how I feel right now. It's like my eyes are burning to cry, and my heart just wants to weep, but I can't. There is no one to talk to. My best friend is drifting away just like everyone else. I don't know who to tell. I just miss that feeling of being loved... or of even being liked. I don't want to feel like this anymore, because it hurts so much... I thought maybe someone could help. I feel so pathetic.
...thanks.

[Goddess Rhiannon]

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Positive energy sent

[SacredWithin]

Sunset, I have felt the way you have for a very long time. (Or so it seemed). So I decided to check out new places and meet people because I realized crying myself to sleep every night wasn’t doing anything. I asked my Spirit Guides to help me out and make a way for me. I prayed every night with tears. I’d wake up with headaches from crying. And finally, something worked. I always believed in the power of “ask and it shall be given”. So I took advantage of that. I still spoke to people. I started saying ‘hello’ to people in the halls at school. And I hung out with my friends until one day I was introduced to a friend of theirs. I still kept my humor up because no matter what, I love laughing. I think with the help of my Spirit Guides and a little effort on my side, I ended up meeting someone who is very special to me. We have so many things in common and it is almost perfect. But do not think that I cannot sympathized with you, because 9 months ago, I felt just as you did.

[nomadicdragon]

((hugs)) & energy..

it's ok to want attention. We all do at various points in our life. so ((hugs))

[LadyOak]

:huddle: We all feel like you do at one point or other in our lives. It's OK to want attention!!!

[Flick]

I won't throw any cliches at you like, "You are always loved here" etc. I went throught the same thing at your age and now ten years later I am working on ending a marriage that was rushed into for the same reason you are talking about. I feel so deeply for you and wish I could be there to give you a "realtime" hug. There may not be a special someone in your life right now but remember that there is someone out there searching just for you, they just don't know it yet. (sorry, I managed a cliche after all) For what it is worth you are amongst friends here and only need come here when you need us. Much love and warmth. Energy for happiness being sent.
Blessed Be,
Flick

[Hoot]

I won't throw any cliches at you like, "You are always loved here" etc.

Okay, then I will throw that at you. Sometimes cliches become cliche because there's such truth in them that people say them all the time, and so they can lose their meaning if we don't look beyond the surface expression.

But I have deep faith that you are loved "here," on this plane of existence and beyond, in ways that few of us can begin to comprehend. I do believe we can feel it, though, if we ask to, and if we take the time to rediscover how to love ourselves enough to trust and give love again. That's not an easy task when you're falling into a funk or a depression. Somehow, nature - getting outside and looking at what's happening in the sky, the trees, the earth, everything - almost always helps to draw me out of it.

What you're describing sounds to me like profound loneliness and fear that this condition will never change. It will - with some time and effort from you, and quite possibly help from others. Have you told your best friend what you told us? Have you thought about getting a little counseling to help you along for a little while?

(((sunset_winds))) Sending you love and energy for strength to see the quiet and ordinary joy in your daily life, to find contentment again.

[Teshuva3D]

I don't know if this is where I put it...
I've been feeling less and less like I want to be around these days.
I feel so stupid talking about this because I'm so against suicide... maybe I don't want to die... Maybe I just want attention... I want someone to love me so badly... I know I'm young, but so many of my friends have found love... so many of them are going off and leaving me behind. I understand that this is a phase in my life that will pass, but somehow that doesnt change how I feel right now. It's like my eyes are burning to cry, and my heart just wants to weep, but I can't. There is no one to talk to. My best friend is drifting away just like everyone else. I don't know who to tell. I just miss that feeling of being loved... or of even being liked. I don't want to feel like this anymore, because it hurts so much... I thought maybe someone could help. I feel so pathetic.
...thanks.
Like many said in this thread...we all have felt like you do..and it passes..truly..
You are a beautiful,evolving spirit...how could that be pathetic??
Years ago,I read a very good point about this issue which went something like this..
It is the sperm which determines the sex and fertilization of the egg...out of all the billions of sperm which were swimming to the egg...the little sperm that was YOU,POWERFUL,MOTIVATED YOU...made it...you are already a winner and a survivor...full of boundless potential and limitless spiritual wonders...YOU WERE THE ONE IN A BILLION!!! WOW!!!
My heart goes out to you hun. Look in the mirror everyday..into your eyes..and observe the amazing life in you...and tell yourself that you will find happiness and love and peace..
What a wonderful miracle you are!!!!
Blessings,
Tesh

[Pesha]

I know how you feel having recently been in the very same place. Love and light and energies to you sweetheart and a shoulder to lean on if you need one.

BB
DS.

[Romani Vixen]

there's a reason that so many people love this place. We're here for you. Healing energy sent.

[Semele]

We do love you. At least you can be honest with yourself in admiting that you are afraid and don't know what to do. That is ok. It is scary and it has happened to a lot of us. Energy on the way sweetie. We are here for you.

[Wintersteel]

Energy Sent.. :huddle:

[Convallaria]

Somehow, nature - getting outside and looking at what's happening in the sky, the trees, the earth, everything - almost always helps to draw me out of it.After I read that, I thought it couldnt hurt, even if it may not help, but I sat and looked out my window, and saw the birds sitting in the tree huddled up, and the snow falling and I felt a little lighter, and a little better. Thank you so much for your kind words and for that suggestion.


What you're describing sounds to me like profound loneliness and fear that this condition will never change.I think thats exactly what it is... and when you lay it out in black and white like that it doesnt feel like its an obstacle I can't over come... naming it somehow makes it feel like something I can defeat... thank you.



You are a beautiful,evolving spirit...how could that be pathetic??
Years ago,I read a very good point about this issue which went something like this..
It is the sperm which determines the sex and fertilization of the egg...out of all the billions of sperm which were swimming to the egg...the little sperm that was YOU,POWERFUL,MOTIVATED YOU...made it...you are already a winner and a survivor...full of boundless potential and limitless spiritual wonders...YOU WERE THE ONE IN A BILLION!!! WOW!!!
My heart goes out to you hun. Look in the mirror everyday..into your eyes..and observe the amazing life in you...and tell yourself that you will find happiness and love and peace..
What a wonderful miracle you are!!!!
Blessings,
TeshWow... lol. that really made me feel strong, lol. You made me feel so special with what you pointed out. Life is a miracle. Thank you for reminding me of that. :).

Thank you all so much for your energy and your sweet words. I know it will take fighting on my part to pull myself out of this rut, but somehow knowing that I can turn to people who would offer such kindness means a lot to me. I felt good this morning when I woke up, I know all of you had a lot to do with that.
I understand this isnt something I can snap out of, but I'm glad that I got it off of my chest and realised that I don't have to just sit alone and feel sorry for myself.
Thank you so much. You can't know how much this has meant to me.
:smile: :hugz:

[Ilasha]

Lots of warm energies are being sent to you! Darlin', I'm a manic depressant myself and please BELIEVE me when I say that I know what the lows are like and how your body can physically ache from the strain of it. The thing is, if you need to sit and have a good cry then don't be afraid to do it. Sometimes you have to let your body express the way that you feel. Change is never easy, especially when you see things moving away from you. But as much as we try to resist it things have a way of changing for the better if you continue to do what you're doing right now. Start with the small things like watching the snow fall and begin to think of other things that you would like to do. Is there something that you've been wanting to do/try for a long time but just never took the time to do it? We are all here to support you and I think that if you had enough strength to confide in a bunch of strangers that there's lots of strength and fight still left in you. Harness it and let it lead you where you need to go! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers...

Blessings,
Ilasha

[Tea Leaf]

Sunset winds, I sympathize with you *Hugs*. I think everyone finds themselves in such a place at sometime or another. I send you love & light... You are not alone.

[Convallaria]

*sigh of happiness*
Thank you so much.

[DixieWitch]

energies sent.