need strength for a breakup

[mothwench]

hi peeps. this morning i had a huge row with my boyfriend. we had been together for four years. i don't know exactly what went wrong this morning, all i have to remember this incident by is a couple of bruises on my arms. he was always hard to handle but never abusive.
anyway, i need some energy to keep smiling at work, and most of all i need the strength to not take him back, no matter how much it hurts.
help? :(
sorry i can't write more right now, it's all too new.

[LadyOak]

Strength and Energy to you!

[mothwench]

thanks hun. i gotta leave for work in ten minutes, and it's gonna be hard. i needed that. :)

[Hoot]

(((mothwench))) It hurts to think of you hurting - I'm sorry to hear anyone is taking advantage of your sweet and cheerful nature, but especially someone you love...

I'm sending you lots and lots of love and energy for strength, calm, and wisdom to see and make the choices in your life that are best for you, and to adhere to them.

:hugz: You take good care of yourself, and let me know if you need a shoulder or someone to listen.

[Desert_Yaqui]

(((((mothwench)))))

It really saddened me to hear of this news... but I believe that you are correct in stating that it requires a tremendous amount of emotional strength not go take him back...

I dispatch to you a huge dose of emotional strength, healing energy and a lot of love. Take care of yourself and you are in my thoughts today.

:hugz:

[Tea Leaf]

*Sending you strength, love and light* *Hugs*

[MoonDust]

energy sent. Remember, you are worth far more than any excuse he can give you for those bruises.

[Rockprincess]

Oh honey. What a hard, sad thing for you. But you are right, you absolutely need to end it, or you're allowing both you AND him to descend to worse places. I'll be sending love and strength. Do what you need to do. :huddle:

[Romani Vixen]

Sweetie... it's going to be hard... but if you were hurt!!!!

You can do this... I've been though it myself. PM if you need anything!!!

((((huggs)))))

[dragonkin]

Strength, calming and healing energy sent. ((((((Mothwench)))))))))) Remember you are worth more than that. It may be hard but remember that life will have better things in store for you.

[mothwench]

thanks ever so much everyone. just got home from work, and it's really nice to read all your posts before i go to bed, alone for the first time in years... it's comforting.
i'm bushed, empty and cold inside and i'm still not able to elaborate on what happened. i think i need a rest. i'll talk to you guys tomorrow.
:huddle:

i'm just thinking i was wondering all day at work today why don't i just pull a sickey and come home, but there was something stopping me from doing that, something helped me keep going the whole eight hours. i think it was all your energy you guys sent me. thanks. :huddle:

[Silver_Undine]

MW, I know it will be hard for you but it's for the best. You definetely deserve much more. Just take it one day at a time. :hugz:

[Pesha]

Healing of the heart, calm and balance sent and may all be peaceful for you {{{{{mothwench}}}}

BB
DS.

[Old Witch]

((((((((( mothwench ))))))) Energy sent............

[Jenne]

*sending energy*


Hang in there Hon...:hugz:

[WandererInGray]

*hugs* Stay strong sweetie. I know it probably hurts like heck, but you're doing the right thing.

[Phoenix Blue]

As much as it hurts to do this, it would hurt so much more not to. :( **Hugs** Be strong, hon.

[Xander67]

may it end in a hug and not a bitter battle... :hugz:

[Autumn]

Ohh Moth hang in there...you will feel better in time. You did right to go to work and have something to focus on as opposed to moping at home. In a while you'll feel better and you will find a man who'll treat you right and above all RESPECT YOU and love you!

:hugz:

[Hoot]

More :hugz:

[Calyx]

Mothy,
What to say....except :hugz: :hugz: :hugz:

I am so very sorry that you are in a difficult situation. don't know what it is, but know that I have lots of love light and hugs for you , and a good ear and some strong shoulders should you need to lean on some.

Sending you some energy for peace, strength and healing. :huddle:

[mothwench]

right well, this morning i got most of my stuff out of his place, and it looks like his bruises are even worse than mine, so i guess i defended myself quite well. i guess he got the message, cause he didn't ask me to come back, which i was afraid of. i'm back at my parents house, and i think i'll be staying here for a while.
it's funny, i don't have much of a heartache. my arms are killing me tho, maybe the physical pain takes away the emotianal pain, and then i'm almost glad it turned out this way.
so what i'll be doing the next couple of days is sorting out my stuff, and putting things wherever i want to put them. i'm really thankful for having such great parents. i didn't even have to ask if i can move back home.

i do miss my computer tho. and my flat rate. i'll have to sort those two out asap. right now i'm on my dad's computer, and it's a horribly poky affair. every page takes ages to load, and being online is expensive all of a sudden.

thank you all again, for caring. it really helps. :huddle:

[Hoot]

Thanks for letting us know how you're doing, sweetie. I think you're making some healthy decisions. Some things will sort out quickly, and others will take more time, but you will get past the hurt and into a better place in your life. Stay strong! :hugz:

[mothwench]

thanks hoot! :hugz:
well what do you know... another day.
:( couldn't sleep very well last night, i think i'll have to admit i'm starting to miss him. (NOT!!!! .... my mind goes instantly) :rolleyes:
damn. i'm angry at myself for being sad over this asshole, pardon my french. i can't wait for monday, at least i have to go to work then, and have something to take my mind off things. :(

[Xentor]

Sorry to catch this just now, Mothwench. :hugz: Sorry you have to go through this. Sending you strength and calmth, and some healing for the bruises. ((((Mothwench))))

[Xentor]

How are you coping this week, Mothwench?

[Nighthawk]

hi peeps. this morning i had a huge row with my boyfriend. we had been together for four years. i don't know exactly what went wrong this morning, all i have to remember this incident by is a couple of bruises on my arms. he was always hard to handle but never abusive.
anyway, i need some energy to keep smiling at work, and most of all i need the strength to not take him back, no matter how much it hurts.
help? :(
sorry i can't write more right now, it's all too new.
not okay for someone to hurt you... but you know that already.... I am sending love and energy... I am so sorry this happens....

[Raydreamer]

I'm so sorry Moth!! :hugz:
I'm sure you've had plenty of these, but more are always good! You're parents sound brilliant! I Hope you feel a bit better now!! ;)
All my love and blessings,
Raydreamer xxx

[mothwench]

gah. i have sooo been putting off posting this, but i gotta tell you guys, that umm... well, we're seeing each other, if that's what you want to call it. last week i felt horrible, like half of me was missing. anyway, he called and said he was sorry, and i said i was sorry, and we both have a lot to think about. we've still both got some black and blue marks to remind us not to let arguments get out of hand like that... so i've decided to give him another chance. i hope you're not all mad at me now. :(
anyway, i'm not moving back in his apartment, at least not for a while.
i'm really sorry, i feel like i've wasted everyone's time and energy. i hope you'll all forgive me for being such a moody, bratty crybaby. :geez:

[Faeawyn]

I think that any of us who have been thru this before expected as much. I've been where you are....and once the anger fades, and the bruises fade...you start to forget the bad and remember the good, and then you weaken. You haven't finished working out your karma together yet....but when the time is right, you'll know, and you'll be strong enough to make the right decisions for yourself. We're not here to judge you....just support you.
Just take care of you.

[Calyx]

Mothy,
You have to do what you think is the best for yourself.
We can't tell you what's right and what's wrong because no matter how the situation sounds to us, no one knows what goes on behind closed doors. Period.

So, that being said, I don't think you wasted MY time, anyways. I highly sympathize with you and your predicament. :hugz:

Sending you more energy for positive resolutions, no matter what they are. :huddle:

[Morr]

lots & lots of positive & warm fuzzy energy sent your way mothwench :)

[Xentor]

More, lots more strength coming your way, (((Mothwench)))

[Jenne]

:hugz: Hon...please just take care of yourself. Not here to judge but to support and love and respect.

Sending you strength and clarity vibes ((((((MOTHY)))))))

[mothwench]

aww, thanks everybody. :huddle: you guys are the kindest, warmest, most understanding group of people i have ever had the pleasure to meet, and i truely mean that.
:hugz: hugs all round.

[Calyx]

:hugz: :hugz: back, sweetie. it will all work out....:hugz: :hugz:

[Hoot]

gah. i have sooo been putting off posting this, but i gotta tell you guys, that umm... well, we're seeing each other, if that's what you want to call it. last week i felt horrible, like half of me was missing. anyway, he called and said he was sorry, and i said i was sorry, and we both have a lot to think about. we've still both got some black and blue marks to remind us not to let arguments get out of hand like that... so i've decided to give him another chance. i hope you're not all mad at me now. :(
anyway, i'm not moving back in his apartment, at least not for a while.
i'm really sorry, i feel like i've wasted everyone's time and energy. i hope you'll all forgive me for being such a moody, bratty crybaby. :geez:

(((Mothwench))) 'tis not for us to tell you what's right for you... and you haven't wasted a thing. Our love and energy is still here for you. We want the best for you, so I'm sure I'm not the only one holding my breath for you and hoping that you find it. But you aren't just immediately leaping back into this, and that sounds smart. Maybe you two should try some relationship counseling, to learn more about managing anger and how to fight fair? Most couples could probably use some help with that every once in a while.

Use your head and protect yourself if you follow your heart back toward this relationship. Give yourself a lot of time to figure things out - you owe yourself and your future that much at least.

Love you, sweetie :hugz: and sending you more energy for strength and wisdom.

[Nighthawk]

gah. i have sooo been putting off posting this, but i gotta tell you guys, that umm... well, we're seeing each other, if that's what you want to call it. last week i felt horrible, like half of me was missing. anyway, he called and said he was sorry, and i said i was sorry, and we both have a lot to think about. we've still both got some black and blue marks to remind us not to let arguments get out of hand like that... so i've decided to give him another chance. i hope you're not all mad at me now. :(
anyway, i'm not moving back in his apartment, at least not for a while.
i'm really sorry, i feel like i've wasted everyone's time and energy. i hope you'll all forgive me for being such a moody, bratty crybaby. :geez:

When you really care about someone, everything is confusing when something really bad happens... there is the disbelief and all .... I hope it goes well

[Kalika]

:hugz: I just saw this thread.

Don't worry about what others think, just do whats right for you.

If you need to talk... you know the drill. :)

Blessings,

Kalika

[Raydreamer]

No worries Mothy! I think Hoot said it best. Nuff' said! :hugz:

[mothwench]

:woot: you guys are the bestest! and my boyfriend says so too. :bigredblu:

[Raydreamer]

:lol:

[Silver_Undine]

:hugz: Everything will work out. Just be careful and take care of yourself.