Doodlebug
April 17th, 2004, 11:56 AM
Hey everybody. This morning I woke up and got on the computer and then went back to sleep. When I did, I had this weird dream about a guy who had been in jail for some reason (not sure why) and he had just gotten out. He was really cute and he moved in next door to my dad's house. I was staying the weekend at my dad's house. I could tell he was attracted to me from the very beginning because he would always smile at me and stuff. One day, I actually got to talk to him and he said that he thought I was really nice girl and he thought he was falling in love with me. We were both 18 at the time. Then at one point my dad told him that if he wanted to come over he could drive over and talk to me. He was just across the road from me so I have no idea why my dad said that. I think it was sort of permission to go on a date. Anyway, we I found out that he went to the Church of the Nazarene here in my town and that he was pretty religious since sometime after he got out of jail. Well, the thing is, I was involved in my Occultic religion that I am currently involved in. One day he told me that he thought I should join Christianity and that he was concerned about my religion because he felt it was some sort of cult or something. So, I started to go to church with him and converted. We both fell in love with each other and were very deeply in love.
Now here's the weird part. I can actually correlate parts of this dream with things that have really happened in my life. The guy seemed to look like a guy that I know and have a crush on. He is/was a Christian although he was a United Methodist, not a Nazarene member.
The part about the Church of the Nazarene kind of confuses me. I guess I just associated that church with the guy because it was one of my favorite churches back when I was a Christian. I loved to go there. The part about me going back to church may coincide with the fact that I have been doubting my beliefs and have doubted my various belief systems for a year now. I have gone back to church a few times but am currently not going.
Why were both 18 at the time may correlate with the fact that me and a guy named Andrew were together at the time. I and Andrew have dated on and off since we were in my Freshman year of high school. He is 1 year and 2 days younger than me if that makes any difference. Me and the former United Methodist guy are the same age. But me and another guy, whom I'll call Matthew are not the same age. He is about 2 years older than me.
Matthew was involved in the same Occultic religion that I am involved in when we first met each other. He introduced it to me. He is now a Conservative Christian (kinda like the Church of the Nazarene are). He has also been in jail once which was about a year ago. He is now out. He didn't become religious until a few months ago though. I am very attracted to him although he didn't look like the guy in my dream. Him and I lived about 20 miles away from each other so the part about him living across the street makes no sense. But then again, none of the three guys I mentioned live very close to me. All of them are at least 20 miles away. The part about my dad inviting him to come over in his car also doesn't make sense. My dad didn't approve of my relationship with Matthew for a reason I won't mention. Also, him and I started out as friends and then I remember one day, he said basically, "You're a really nice girl and I think I'm falling in love with you." just like in the dream. Him and I did have about a 6 month relationship in which we were more in love with each other than anyone we have ever met before. In fact, at one point he said that he was 100% sure that we would be married someday. Although certain circumstances keep us apart at this time, I know that our love for each other is still there. He has told me that when certain circumstances change, him and I will more than likely be back together. I believe with all my heart that this man is my soulmate. In fact, back when I was about 18, Andrew told me what my soulmate would look like. He said that he would be tall, have black hair, and would wear glasses. When he told me this I visualized this man and this man looked EXACTLY like Matthew. This further increases my beliefs that he and I are soulmates.
So anyway, this dream has many corresponding parts with parts of my life. I believe it is truly about confusion about the three guys. Andrew and I were also extremely close when we dated. However, it seems like he has mostly fallen out of love with me and I with him. At least for the most part anyway. At one point though, it did seem like we were soulmates. That was until he joined the Army. When he joined the Army, he and I still had very strong feelings towards each other but we almost never see each other now and he has changed tremendously and I just don't feel like I am very much in love with him anymore. We always were more like brother and sister than anything and that is even more clear now. As for the first guy, Chris, well he confuses me. I like him because he's really cute (has that computer guy look that I adore) and he has some other attractive qualities about him as well. However, him and I often get into arguments in which we threaten to never talk to each other again and we have a lot of major communication problems so I seriously doubt that him and I are compatible.
So anyway, what do you think about all this? I found this dream to be quite odd. Could it represent my confusion about these three guys? I really don't know why I am confused. I am very certain that Matthew is my soulmate but I guess its just the fact that I long for a relationship with someone. I really don't know. I know that I have had opportunities to go and do things with Chris but I feel too strongly towards Matthew to do this. I love Matthew with all my heart and I just don't want anyone else but him.
Ok, enough talking, what's your opinions everyone?? :)
Now here's the weird part. I can actually correlate parts of this dream with things that have really happened in my life. The guy seemed to look like a guy that I know and have a crush on. He is/was a Christian although he was a United Methodist, not a Nazarene member.
The part about the Church of the Nazarene kind of confuses me. I guess I just associated that church with the guy because it was one of my favorite churches back when I was a Christian. I loved to go there. The part about me going back to church may coincide with the fact that I have been doubting my beliefs and have doubted my various belief systems for a year now. I have gone back to church a few times but am currently not going.
Why were both 18 at the time may correlate with the fact that me and a guy named Andrew were together at the time. I and Andrew have dated on and off since we were in my Freshman year of high school. He is 1 year and 2 days younger than me if that makes any difference. Me and the former United Methodist guy are the same age. But me and another guy, whom I'll call Matthew are not the same age. He is about 2 years older than me.
Matthew was involved in the same Occultic religion that I am involved in when we first met each other. He introduced it to me. He is now a Conservative Christian (kinda like the Church of the Nazarene are). He has also been in jail once which was about a year ago. He is now out. He didn't become religious until a few months ago though. I am very attracted to him although he didn't look like the guy in my dream. Him and I lived about 20 miles away from each other so the part about him living across the street makes no sense. But then again, none of the three guys I mentioned live very close to me. All of them are at least 20 miles away. The part about my dad inviting him to come over in his car also doesn't make sense. My dad didn't approve of my relationship with Matthew for a reason I won't mention. Also, him and I started out as friends and then I remember one day, he said basically, "You're a really nice girl and I think I'm falling in love with you." just like in the dream. Him and I did have about a 6 month relationship in which we were more in love with each other than anyone we have ever met before. In fact, at one point he said that he was 100% sure that we would be married someday. Although certain circumstances keep us apart at this time, I know that our love for each other is still there. He has told me that when certain circumstances change, him and I will more than likely be back together. I believe with all my heart that this man is my soulmate. In fact, back when I was about 18, Andrew told me what my soulmate would look like. He said that he would be tall, have black hair, and would wear glasses. When he told me this I visualized this man and this man looked EXACTLY like Matthew. This further increases my beliefs that he and I are soulmates.
So anyway, this dream has many corresponding parts with parts of my life. I believe it is truly about confusion about the three guys. Andrew and I were also extremely close when we dated. However, it seems like he has mostly fallen out of love with me and I with him. At least for the most part anyway. At one point though, it did seem like we were soulmates. That was until he joined the Army. When he joined the Army, he and I still had very strong feelings towards each other but we almost never see each other now and he has changed tremendously and I just don't feel like I am very much in love with him anymore. We always were more like brother and sister than anything and that is even more clear now. As for the first guy, Chris, well he confuses me. I like him because he's really cute (has that computer guy look that I adore) and he has some other attractive qualities about him as well. However, him and I often get into arguments in which we threaten to never talk to each other again and we have a lot of major communication problems so I seriously doubt that him and I are compatible.
So anyway, what do you think about all this? I found this dream to be quite odd. Could it represent my confusion about these three guys? I really don't know why I am confused. I am very certain that Matthew is my soulmate but I guess its just the fact that I long for a relationship with someone. I really don't know. I know that I have had opportunities to go and do things with Chris but I feel too strongly towards Matthew to do this. I love Matthew with all my heart and I just don't want anyone else but him.
Ok, enough talking, what's your opinions everyone?? :)