boerbabe
April 25th, 2004, 04:05 AM
Ok, so I'm being lazy and copying form my blog, but here's some other stuff to fill you in on it and why this is so darned weird to me.
Ray was my fiance a zillion years ago. He's been completely history for 4 years, and I have seen him once after that and that was purely in passing (he said hi, I said I'm busy). He was a drunk, emotionaly/verbally abusive, and very possesive....
I had the weirdest dream last night, but I'm not sure what kind of weird it was really. And for the life of me I can't figure out what may have triggered it either, or why for once I not only remember it, but remember it almost 18 hours lateer.
For some reason, Ray was coming home to me. This was very obviously long after the real and final breakup, and nothing gave it away as to why he was coming back, or why I was letting him. But he came back to me, after being away soemwhere- maybe school, prison, who the heck knows.
And in this dream we went into the shower together, but strangely enough, there was another couple in there too that he knew- I've never seen them before, and can't remember more then the fact they were there. Ray had a huge beer gut and a nasty, nasty scar across his butt- I have no idea what from, it was just gruesome.
We were kissing, and he pushed me away and then tells me he can't do this, and starts making weird gagging noises, but not really gagging, but he looked sick. Then that was about it. Something about it not being right, I think.
Maybe even in my weird, twisted and poluted dream he amazingly remembered- guess what?- he's married! lol
Hopefully there won;t be any dreams of that nature tonight... *shudders* That was just bad.
Ray was my fiance a zillion years ago. He's been completely history for 4 years, and I have seen him once after that and that was purely in passing (he said hi, I said I'm busy). He was a drunk, emotionaly/verbally abusive, and very possesive....
I had the weirdest dream last night, but I'm not sure what kind of weird it was really. And for the life of me I can't figure out what may have triggered it either, or why for once I not only remember it, but remember it almost 18 hours lateer.
For some reason, Ray was coming home to me. This was very obviously long after the real and final breakup, and nothing gave it away as to why he was coming back, or why I was letting him. But he came back to me, after being away soemwhere- maybe school, prison, who the heck knows.
And in this dream we went into the shower together, but strangely enough, there was another couple in there too that he knew- I've never seen them before, and can't remember more then the fact they were there. Ray had a huge beer gut and a nasty, nasty scar across his butt- I have no idea what from, it was just gruesome.
We were kissing, and he pushed me away and then tells me he can't do this, and starts making weird gagging noises, but not really gagging, but he looked sick. Then that was about it. Something about it not being right, I think.
Maybe even in my weird, twisted and poluted dream he amazingly remembered- guess what?- he's married! lol
Hopefully there won;t be any dreams of that nature tonight... *shudders* That was just bad.