Eowyn
April 26th, 2004, 12:06 PM
Well... I haft to make a post like this - again. I just really are feeling bad at the moment and I just been to write it off.
My dad has just been here... And he's making me feel sooo bad inside.... I mean I now feel like Im gonna throw up, I feel as if Im going to start crying and I just feel generally bad. And offcourse - that tired drained feeling I have all the time around him....
He came here helpin' my mom with a thing and then they made a little mess and then I was doing some homework and he demanded me to clean it up with the vacuum cleaner. Just because my little sister had helped with lights and so on. And my mom was kinda in on it which makes me feel bad as well because... it's not the cleaning part that really buggs me but dad "ran over" me (deciding what to do and wont take no for an answer) - again and she knows (well not really though) how bad my dad makes me feel because of... past history.
And on top of all that Im gonna be there over the weekend and it's Beltane on top of it all!!! The sabbat I have really looked forward to... And I thinking about staying here but I have no idea since it feels as if it's gonna be as bad on both places....
My dad has just been here... And he's making me feel sooo bad inside.... I mean I now feel like Im gonna throw up, I feel as if Im going to start crying and I just feel generally bad. And offcourse - that tired drained feeling I have all the time around him....
He came here helpin' my mom with a thing and then they made a little mess and then I was doing some homework and he demanded me to clean it up with the vacuum cleaner. Just because my little sister had helped with lights and so on. And my mom was kinda in on it which makes me feel bad as well because... it's not the cleaning part that really buggs me but dad "ran over" me (deciding what to do and wont take no for an answer) - again and she knows (well not really though) how bad my dad makes me feel because of... past history.
And on top of all that Im gonna be there over the weekend and it's Beltane on top of it all!!! The sabbat I have really looked forward to... And I thinking about staying here but I have no idea since it feels as if it's gonna be as bad on both places....