Faerwolf
June 23rd, 2004, 02:39 PM
My name is Faerwolf, and today my heart hangs heavy. First of all my mother,a wonderfull inspriring woman is going through a terrible ordeal. Almost a year ago i found out that my stepfather was beating her. Outraged i wished for his death, which is horrible, but we all know that the love for our mothers is something very powerfull in itself. After she found the strength to leave him, he has still been hurting her greatly. He is not taking responsibility for the things he needs to do to finnish to get the divorce final. He is a truly disturbed man. And even though they are seperated he still is hurting her. She is coming up to her court date and she and all of our family and friends are pulling for her strength. He stole her self-esteem and her pride and her love. I know that he will get his in the end but right now it seems that he is simply happy by dragging out these proceeding because he knows that way he still is in control. His name is Phil McDonald.
I have tried to take care of my mother for a long time. After my father left she was a mess and our roles of mother-child were revesered. I know that she is a grown woman but it is hard to erase so many years of feeling responsible for her. When i came to college i was free of all of that and litterally i went crazy. I got a DWI, i started doing cocaine, weed, and all kinds of other horrible things. I dropped out of school and sank into a deep depression. I lost all self confidence in myself. I have been working for the last year to get it back and i have been very successful. Not as successful as i wish i could have been but it's been difficult pulling myself out. Two night ago i got a DWI. I knew i shouldn't have been driving, and i'm not making excuses. I broke the law and i will have to handle this like an adult, responsibly. I wanted to kill myself for being so stupid. I know that's not the answer but i feel like i have fallen right back down. Before i would have let it absorb me and ruin me. This time i'm not. This time i am taking this as a test. I i plan to pass with flying colors.
I need to be strong for myself, my mother, and my family, and she needs to be strong for herself. I would greatly appreciate any help. I know it may sound like a silly quest but since i have put my faith back into The Goddess and God and myself i feel like , here on this online community i have silent family and friends.
Blessed Be to all who know love. And Blessed Be to all who are finding it.
Faerwolf
I have tried to take care of my mother for a long time. After my father left she was a mess and our roles of mother-child were revesered. I know that she is a grown woman but it is hard to erase so many years of feeling responsible for her. When i came to college i was free of all of that and litterally i went crazy. I got a DWI, i started doing cocaine, weed, and all kinds of other horrible things. I dropped out of school and sank into a deep depression. I lost all self confidence in myself. I have been working for the last year to get it back and i have been very successful. Not as successful as i wish i could have been but it's been difficult pulling myself out. Two night ago i got a DWI. I knew i shouldn't have been driving, and i'm not making excuses. I broke the law and i will have to handle this like an adult, responsibly. I wanted to kill myself for being so stupid. I know that's not the answer but i feel like i have fallen right back down. Before i would have let it absorb me and ruin me. This time i'm not. This time i am taking this as a test. I i plan to pass with flying colors.
I need to be strong for myself, my mother, and my family, and she needs to be strong for herself. I would greatly appreciate any help. I know it may sound like a silly quest but since i have put my faith back into The Goddess and God and myself i feel like , here on this online community i have silent family and friends.
Blessed Be to all who know love. And Blessed Be to all who are finding it.
Faerwolf