Starry Di
September 7th, 2004, 10:20 PM
i was going to e-mail this to my friend, but she's jealous of Mary, so yeah :$
Mary says:
You're always stressed.
Heida -> Pai says:
the last thing I cried over was cause I couldn't find the kleenex box cause I had a booger in my nose, that much I know
Heida -> Pai says:
and I didn't have a long sleeve to wipe it on
Heida -> Pai says:
and I PMSed about Labor Day Weekend, and then about my computer crashin
Heida -> Pai says:
*crashing
Heida -> Pai says:
and what am I always stressed about?
Mary says:
You just always are.
Heida -> Pai says:
Not always
Mary says:
Yep.
Blah. I don't know if it's cause I'm always stressed when I talk to her, and I always wind up being upset when I talk to her (cause she's like the only person that I freak out at alot to, and I suppose the only person that I'm honest acting with, in terms of expressing what I truly feel when even I don't know what I feel.
{{-->two hours later, typing this up on MW<--}}
It's not to say that I don't express what I feel to my friends, it's just that after instantly IMing her, I realize that I'm upset, even if I don't have a reason. And then I tend to act on that feeling with her. Perhaps because she's more understanding and slightly more detached than the rest of my friends (she took a psychology course in college), and perhaps it's cause she's older than me (by 22 years. She's 39, I'm 17 :$ going to be 18 in 19 days :D). And perhaps because she's more consistant than my friends. She doesn't really offer me her opinion on how I'm acting, she mostly just deflects it and lets it play out by only replying with "Okay" or "k." Meaning that she hears me. Most of my friends interject their own advice or their own opinions and get all attached and yeah.
And this is where I end my post, as I have to eleminate excess minerals and calcium from my body, shower, brush my teeth and go to bed :P Perhaps I'll continue this post later. Or perhaps not. [[shrugs]]
Mary says:
You're always stressed.
Heida -> Pai says:
the last thing I cried over was cause I couldn't find the kleenex box cause I had a booger in my nose, that much I know
Heida -> Pai says:
and I didn't have a long sleeve to wipe it on
Heida -> Pai says:
and I PMSed about Labor Day Weekend, and then about my computer crashin
Heida -> Pai says:
*crashing
Heida -> Pai says:
and what am I always stressed about?
Mary says:
You just always are.
Heida -> Pai says:
Not always
Mary says:
Yep.
Blah. I don't know if it's cause I'm always stressed when I talk to her, and I always wind up being upset when I talk to her (cause she's like the only person that I freak out at alot to, and I suppose the only person that I'm honest acting with, in terms of expressing what I truly feel when even I don't know what I feel.
{{-->two hours later, typing this up on MW<--}}
It's not to say that I don't express what I feel to my friends, it's just that after instantly IMing her, I realize that I'm upset, even if I don't have a reason. And then I tend to act on that feeling with her. Perhaps because she's more understanding and slightly more detached than the rest of my friends (she took a psychology course in college), and perhaps it's cause she's older than me (by 22 years. She's 39, I'm 17 :$ going to be 18 in 19 days :D). And perhaps because she's more consistant than my friends. She doesn't really offer me her opinion on how I'm acting, she mostly just deflects it and lets it play out by only replying with "Okay" or "k." Meaning that she hears me. Most of my friends interject their own advice or their own opinions and get all attached and yeah.
And this is where I end my post, as I have to eleminate excess minerals and calcium from my body, shower, brush my teeth and go to bed :P Perhaps I'll continue this post later. Or perhaps not. [[shrugs]]