please help

[Mab]

please....

he's gone, again.....he told me not to call, try to see him, e-mail him or anything.......

all b/c..........b/c I worry about him & his daughter.....b/c he waits & waits & won't take action.........

i told him the truth. i was brutally honest with him....

and he hates me now...

suddenly....in the course of a few hours.....

maybe it will pass.....

right now, though......i seriously feel i want to die.....it hurts so much.

[Shanti]

~hugs~ and energy to heal ease this hard time.

[GryphonGirl]

A big tight :hugz: and energy for peace and serenity. I think he knows you are right, and that's what upsets him....I know you are tired of waiting, and wondering. I would bet he is too......When he sees you are STILL there, even after this. I think he may finally feel that spark..

[Aleannah]

:hugz: comforting energy to you

[Teresa]

:hugz: Sedning comforting energies Your way!!!

[Nadira_Akila]

(((((((Huggles))))))) I know it is difficult and it hurts bad...I will send comforting energy to you as well.


Peace&Light
Nadira

[Mab]

no........this time he means it..........he's said no phone call, no e-mail, no mail, nothing.......

he left me a voice-mail just now....2 actually......saying.......he wants everything of his back......all the pictures of "my daughter"......he wouldn't even use her name......you'd think i was a criminal, that i had tried ot murder her or him or........he wants it all back & is mailing me back my key, he says........

he says he never wants to see me or hear from me again.

and just last night he was saying that his days of going home to his place (as opposed to our place) were numbered & we'd be together soon.........

i can't take this.....i can't......oh, god, somebody please help....

[Shanti]

Mab, I feel your pain, seriously and I so wish I could just go to you and really hug you and let you lean it all on me.
This ~hug~ is all I can do. I care so much for what you feel. I am here and we all are. Strength I send for you. I have lit a candle. I pray the spirits hug you for me. I am hugging you in my heart.

[Nighthawk]

My poor dear.. Um, this is not the first time he has done this.... I am so sorry... I wish you the strength to break away, if that is what you really want to do... and to feel whole again, for you are a very nice and sweet person...I am here if you need...

[~*Ginger*~]

:hugz:

[magick_faerie]

my deepest, heartfelt blessings to you freind.....stay strong. you are in my thoughts.

[Faery-Wings]

I think he knows you are right, and that's what upsets him.... Not knowing everything, I agree with this. When "things" were really bad with me and hubby ovee the summer, he told me he wanted me out, and wanted a divorce- and yes, that he hated me. Over time, I realized that it wasn't "him" talking- it was the anger, the fear and the confusion.

Lots of good thoughts coming your way- be strong sweetheart.

[Mab]

Not knowing everything, I agree with this. When "things" were really bad with me and hubby ovee the summer, he told me he wanted me out, and wanted a divorce- and yes, that he hated me. Over time, I realized that it wasn't "him" talking- it was the anger, the fear and the confusion.

Lots of good thoughts coming your way- be strong sweetheart.
well, I have slept some, and prayed most of the night. There is some level of quiet in my head & heart, and i know it is b/c of you kind souls.

no, it is not the first time he has done this, and it is usually b/c I have held a mirror up to him & he doesn't like what he sees. I think he knows I'm right, too, but he's too scared or something to take action to correct his problem.

either way, this cannot continue. If i must go on alone, i suppose i must.....but i doubt that i can ever be whole again....so i will go on half a person, and try my best to trust Spirit to guide me......

thank you all. you have no idea how wonderful you are. i never would have thought that energies & caring could reach so far & still be so potent, but i do not doubt it now.

[MystAngel]

*hug* I'll be thinking about you. Be strong and love yourself, hon.... others here do, obviously. Take all the energy you can, and build yourself up with it. Be well.

[~*Ginger*~]

this cannot continue. If i must go on alone, i suppose i must.....but i doubt that i can ever be whole again....so i will go on half a person, and try my best to trust Spirit to guide me......
Mab I haven't known what to say to you...
I understand how your hurting.
And totally relate to your confusion, & frustration of being snatched back, & forth, and back, & forth, over, and over again...
I know how much it hurts, and how very unfair it is. Un-justly so!
The only thing you can do is, do the very best to take care of yourself, and stop enabling him to do this to you.
You deserve much better for just the feelings in your heart than to be treated this way.

Sacrifice this love, & pain for one that will be true, & strong!

I'd send you strength, and energy if I had any to spare, truely I would, but for now, all I can send you is a heart felt hug, and a knowing that your not truely alone...

:hugz:

If you need me, just pm me...

[OriginalWacky]

either way, this cannot continue. If i must go on alone, i suppose i must.....but i doubt that i can ever be whole again....so i will go on half a person,
I'm not sure how to word this, so I suppose I'll just blurt it out, and hope you understand that I am trying in my own fumbling way to help.

That quote up there, bothers me a little bit. You are NOT half a person. You are a wonderful, special person. You are hurting, and I can relate to that, but you will go on, will make it, and will find some kind of peace and happiness again, as unbelievable as it may seem right now.

It's hard, so hard to go on when things are so rough, but you can, and you will. We are all here for you, and we will do whatever we can to help you as much as possible. Now, this might sound counterproductive, but go have yourself a good cry, and then start picking yourself up to go on.

Blessings,
Michele

Oh... and here's something for you: :smoochypo

[ObsidianSunrise]

:hugz: It will be hard for a while, but you can go on to live a wonderful life Hun. You are a strong special person. I can tell by some of the things you have said. We are all pulling for you and will be here if you need us. I'm sending you strength and supportive energy and another :hugz:

[Teresa]

I am just a pm away if You need me hun.i am a great listener and I have had to walk alone before.It gets easier with time and usually it is for a reason and then you look back and say Wow !!! that was why. Hugs I have you in my prayers and have a candle dressed for You.

[Mab]

Y'all all make me want to cry, but out of....gratitude?

you are all so special, and so dear, and so kind....

and I am very much unused to that.

thank you all so very much. sending hugs to you all, and many many thanks.

[Blondie]

Be strong.

[DragonsChest]

:hugz:

[Shanti]

~hugs hon~

[OriginalWacky]

Y'all all make me want to cry, but out of....gratitude?

you are all so special, and so dear, and so kind....

and I am very much unused to that.

thank you all so very much. sending hugs to you all, and many many thanks.
From somebody who has cried many a time over words on a screen... you are welcome. Try to remember that you are loved.