i cry for no reason!

[themessenger]

for a few months now (although i've experienced this a few years back) i've randomly broken down into tears, for little or no apparent reason. it feels like a spinning black disk whirling out of control in my chest. i'm usually a very optomistic person, but often, now, i'll break into silent tears. sometimes because my boyfriend will pull away to suddenly, or because somebody's sick, or like right now, because my boyfriend is sick of everything, and its rubbing off. sometimes, i'll be on one of these crazy emotional swings, and i'll see something totally obscure, but beautiful, and i'll collapse into tears because deep inside it feels like nobody could care less about the beauty i see. i feel so lonely. i wanna know whats up with me. anyones comments are greatly appreciated

the messenger

[Gently Gazing Eyes]

Sounds to me like you have the mindset of the stereotypical gothic, which to me is not a 'problem' at all.

[schadenfreude]

crying is a beautiful thing .. if you feel the need to cry or just begin to cry for 'no apparent reason' .. there *is* a reason deep down inside .. try not to hold it back .. bottled feelings .. emotions .. anything of the sort .. will only build up and overflow in time .. Crying .. (just like a punching bag heh will help with aggression) .. will help soothe your insides .. understand that .. there are certain areas in your brain that are like .. suitcases for emotions .. the amygdala is that suitcase. to quickly explain .. the reason that vets have a problem after leaving the war .. is due to that suitcase (amygdala) .. it stores the way your body has reacted to things in the past and will .. react faster than the neocortex (the logical / thinking part of the brain) .. that's possibly why you think it is for no reason .. (just a thought) .. amygdala triggers a response before the cortical centers have a chance to know what's really going on.

so cryyyyyyyyyyy .. my best advice .. let it all out if you can .. you're lucky .. some can't cry if they wanted to .. they're so bottled up.

[Cerulean]

There's a reason for everything. Emotions from former times, or former lives, push their way up to be expressed. There are writings about Healing Tears on Cyquest.com. If this isn't primarily from the past, you are expressing that you feel that your boyfriend is sometimes aloof from you, making you feel alone. Or possibly this is a metaphor for feeling cut off from part of yourself.

[Rain Gnosis]

Well, my opinion is going to be different then everyone's. When I start bursting into tears almost randomly like that it's because I'm depressed - I tend not to realize when I'm stressing out or upset or just not dealing well until I cry or get really angry over stupid things. I know it's time to start taking St Johns Wort (a herb I take for depression) when my fiance is gone to the gym for 2 hours and I start thinking he's cheating on me and end up bawling and throwing things and scream at him when he gets home. I'm not super depressed and miserable all the time - I think it's just I get a bit down and don't realize it until I snap. It's like I don't realize all the little upsets until I just can't handle anything and it boils over about something stupid.

I take 900mg of St Johns Wort everyday, it takes a few weeks to have effects. You might talk to your doctor however - particularly if you take any other medication since SJW (St Johns Wort) can affect other stuff, especially making birth control pills ineffective. If I go on this stuff for awhile it helps smooth the rough spots so I find it a lot easier to deal with things. And again, you might ask your doctor about this - he might prescribe you something better, and even if not, he knows you better then we do and is probably the best person to help you.

[veinglory]

You might try finding some time alone and having a good damn cry. Think about whether there is anything you need to change in your life. If not try just not giving into it and seeking distraction. If that doesn't sort it try herbs or couselling or going to the doctor.

I think most people go through patchs like this and so long as it doesn't go for months, and isn't associated with a really unhappy state of mind, just work through it...

IMHO of course.